…remembering a loving wife and mother – we lost someone truly special, she will never be forgotten
She started coughing the night before. I didn’t think much of it. She’s coughed like that before.
I took her to the Cubs game during the day on Saturday. It was Dora day. We didn’t plan it around getting the doll, had tickets anyways, but she did get a doll. But she kept coughing and started complaining about a stomach ache.
She finally took a nap around 5pm.
I called the doctor around 7:30. They suggested we go the ER if she was having difficulty breathing. She was.
But I was at home with C and she was still at Grandmas. So I called Grandma and asked her to pack her up.
I wasn’t really worried but for some reason I could hardly breath/concentrate. I think it had a lot to do with where I was driving. C was in the back seat. I just didn’t know what’s going on w/me, but I knew I didn’t feel right. I try to call a few people but that didn’t help. I’m guessing it was anxiety. I made it to the hospital fine but that was zero fun. Kind of a wakeup call that I’m not really doing as okay as I thought I was 🙁
On the way to the ER for E she got sick in the car. Was super scared at the hospital because she didn’t know what was going on, felt like crap, and there were all sorts of people around her. I felt so bad for her. After a couple hours her breathing and stomach finally started to settle down. Getting the pills in her mouth were not easy.
She seems better now. She is still on some meds & doing some breathing treatments. We’re not sure yet if it was allergy related or a virus. I had asthma when I was a kid and it’s always been a concern of mine that the kids would inherit it. I hope that’s not the case.
They rock!
It isn’t easy getting people together but we finally did last night. By 11am yesterday about 45 e-mails had already gone back and forth. They had me lol!
It wasn’t a big group, 10 of us. Ate at Wildfire. It was just nice to get out, see everyone, and laugh a lot! Too bad the night had to end.
Oh…and my blog was down for like 3 weeks here so I have some catching up to do.
Worked late tonight. Well more like sat at my desk and didn’t do anything for an extra 4+ hours. I’m not so sure why I decided it was necessary to be there. I mean, there sort of was a reason but … anyways
So I got home late. The kids stayed at Grandma’s. Last night the same thing.
Last night I thought maybe I would take care of one of my million tasks. Instead I fell asleep on the couch.
Tonight, home later, but somewhat-sorta-motivated to do something.
So I attacked the closet.
It was very SAD
Except for my stuff it’s remained unchanged, unaltered. I’m afraid removing the stuff will impact my lil girl. That was one reason I left it as it. The other being that it’s just one of those tasks I would rather put off…forever! I guess we’ll see how she does with it.
Months ago I found these vacuum storage bags at costco. The box has been sitting at the entrance to the closet ever since.
But tonight I did it. So many times I wanted to stop. But I kept going. I knew that if I stopped I would just have to get back to it again.
So all her clothes are now packaged away. It was not a fun activity. It doesn’t feel good to have removed it from my list. It didn’t feel much different keeping everything in there, having to see it each and every day 🙁 It was lose-lose
Who’s counting anyways? Even though I knew it was yet another month today, a morning msg from a friend, although kind, was just the reminder I didn’t really want
So after a morning that seemed to drag along and a night of broken sleep I hope to soon forget, I got a phone call
It was my daughter. She sounded so grown up and articulate, for a 3 yr old… I didn’t even know it was her at first. She had big news for daddy. She was so excited. And as weird as it seemed after the fact I was pretty excited for her too. She pooped on the toilet! That’s BIG news. A huge milestone for her. And she really was just over the top w/excitement. It brought out a “real” smile in me too.
So, just another reason to talk “poop”. Seems like it enters the conversation more than it should. And I’m not sure if it’s because of kids or because it seems to be such an entertaining topic
One of my top 10 pet peeves … people whispering to each other in an office setting. Grow the f#$% up! I’ve become less and less of a fan of a particular person in the organization. She thinks she’s on a pedestal and acts like she can assert authority on anyone even though her position is far from someone of that stature. I think she’s 2-faced. And I’m not a big fan of interoffice b.s. … secret telling or whispering, whatever the intention, is ultra-childish and irritating. (p.s. this just happened so it’s fresh on my mind and needed to bitch about it)
But not to take away from my daughter’s accomplishments today … woo hoo!
And of course back to what today is … #11. I had some crazy weird-ass dreams last night. Of course I can’t remember much of what they were about. My allergies, I think, were driving me nuts last night. My nose was SO stuffed. I probably used half a box of tissue. E woke up crying and then C. It was a long night. So what was I dreaming about anyways … I have no clue
And today … just another day. 11 months older … feels like 11 years. Still so fresh. Still so unbelievable. The world moves on. Thrown under the sheets or whatever you want to call it. It just plain sucks!
