I’ve had some recent meet ups with a friend who’s writing a book where we share some stories about our lives but also our past.
And from those conversations it’s become very apparent that I rarely give myself the opportunity to grieve.
She’s been gone for so long now but she’s still always with us.
I think about her always, wish I dreamt about her more (I do still have dreams, thankfully), and continually make her apart of our lives even though its been so long.
And now that I have a recent graduate in the house, who is literally 1 month away from heading to college, the fact that she’s an adult and soon to be on her way is looming heavily.
I’ve been asked on multiple occasions how I’m feeling about her leaving and every time I say something like I’m good, she’s ready to go. I just don’t think I even let myself think much about it, yet
And because of those recent meetups I decided to go and read some of my old posts … tearjerker’s for sure.
All those little memories that I decided to write down. Omg, priceless.
Early milestones, activities, relationships, holidays, challenges … all those things that seemed important or worthy of a post or two … I couldn’t be more thankful that I took the time to write things down.
She just graduated, we’re actively planning her graduation party and getting ready for her to head off, this enormous milestone is such an accomplishment and I’m beyond proud of everything she has done and become. I’m excited to see her take this next step and how in so many ways she is just like Cari but me as well (hopefully the good parts of both).
He’s not far behind and before I know it I’ll have an empty house. That’s crazy!
But with her graduation we planned and executed a successful European Vacation to Italy, Paris & Ireland. Their feedback on the trip was nothing less than amazing. And for me it was such a joy to spend time with these two teenagers. I’m certainly enjoying this phase of our lives together ๐