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January, 2013:


Even though trying to put them to bed by 7:15 seems like a good idea, sometimes it just doesn’t work … like tonight

They’re laying up there but I can still hear them talking (at least they’re not fighting, at the moment anyways)

She’s been asking a lot of questions about Cari

I think I gave her an answer the other day that didn’t sit well with her

She asked who she loved the most, me or mommy

While I don’t think I said one other the other, she wanted the answer to be mommy

A couple days later she was really upset about that and I had to clarify my answer

Then she wanted to know what parts of her were like mommy, then they both wanted to know

The two of them don’t look exactly a like but think they just wanted to hear that most of how they looked came from her


A couple weeks ago a note came home from school that said she was talking a lot with another girl while the teacher was talking

I didn’t see the note until we were getting ready for school last monday morning

It took a little prodding but she finally agreed to tell me what it was about and said she’d never do it again … right !?!?

But then later that morning I got an e-mail from the teacher asking to come in or call to discuss something about her

So here I am thinking all day that it’s way worse than this note about her talking, like what could she have done to create the need for this?

Apparently she told her P.E. teacher that her daddy was getting married again and the P.E. teacher told her regular teacher and her regular teacher wanted to make sure I knew about it.  I guess the P.E. teacher thought it was strange that this little girl was talking about this.  Supposedly the teacher didn’t know about our situation so perhaps if she did that would have changed things.

I like that I was informed about it but I really was worried that it was something else.  While I’m nowhere close to being in the position of marriage i’m glad to hear that perhaps she considers it an option.


Last week he turned 4 … next Friday she turns 6

This Sunday we’re having a party and if everyone shows there’ll be like 70 people there

That only includes a few of their new school friends.  Our friends & family have so many kids that it’s impossible to invite everyone

I wonder if this will be the last group kids party I do.  Will she want her own party next year?


Thru The Holidays …


Another Christmas, Another Anniversary … your birthday … and soon the kids birthdays too.  That’s a lot of stuff in less than 2 months.

Their birthday parties are planned.  Now I just need to get out all the invites.  We have big parties when it’s just our friends but now we have our new PK and K friends … I don’t mind putting it together but my hand hurts tonight from writing out the invites.  I wonder if this will be the last year I do their parties together.  I think next year they might just want it to be only the ‘boys’ or the ‘girls’ instead of a party all together.

Our anniversary would have been our 7th.  Most people didn’t remember or at least they didn’t say anything.  But at least one person remembered and msg’d me.  We went out with friends, the kids too, it was fun!  Would have been 7 years.  YIKES.  Does that mean 4 anniversaries have past already?

We also went out on NYE.  We didn’t get home until almost 2a and I had the kids with me.  That was SO past their bedtime.  And SO not the norm for me … way outside my normal boundaries of normalcy.  We left the party around 1:15 and C cried half the way home.  All the kids there were just running around on everybody else’s energy it seemed.  I’m actually surprised they made it so late.  It took like 2 days to recover.  It was like having a hangover without actually being hungover.  I don’t think I’m going to try that again any time soon … I need some adult nights out soon … and then a day of rest.

Christmas was amazing for the kids.  $ was tight this year so the present count was down a little.  But the kids didn’t seem to mind.  She got a barbie dream house, a new amercian girl doll, and her favorite, an easy bake oven.  He got a new bike, a bunch of avenger toys, and a remote control car.  I’m glad it’s over but I do enjoy that time of the year with the kids.  They’re so amazingly cute.  I hope they hold onto santa for years.

Next year we’re going to take a vacation for at least NYE, like leave the day after Christmas.  I so want to be somewhere warm instead.  A vacation is definitely needed.  Hopefully it won’t take another 12 months to happen.

The kids miss you tons, btw.  We may not talk about it all the time but it’s at least every other day.  E loves you more than anyone else.  In fact she might tell me that every day.  Heaven is such a difficult concept.  We have a book that talks about heaven and read it every so often.  While I use the concept to explain to the kids what happened, it’s a really struggle for me to explain since it simply isn’t what I believe.  UGH!  That itself is a topic for another day.