Now that I say that I’m sure things will change…they almost always do. But they’re both asleep and the temp is comfortable and … well, I’m missing her a lot.
I hit a brick wall at about 8:30 but for some reason an hour+ later I’m wide awake. Last night I kept falling asleep while E was still awake. She finally went to bed about an hour and a half later than usual. She doesn’t like to go to bed on time lately. I’ve had to invoke a little trickery. Last night I told her I was going to get another bottle, tonight C was crying…she’s super smart so this won’t last but it’s working for now.
Caffeine has become my friend, but I don’t drink a ton. I just need a quick pick me up. I’m trying to get out and get some exercise. I’m hoping it will help. But nothing gets me going as quick as a little caffeine.
Today I biked for another 12-15 miles. I’m not quite sure how far it was exactly. It was for sure at least 12 but I haven’t mapped it out. Biking is tough because it gives me time to think; primarily about her. That’s about all I thought about for the hour or so I rode. And doing stuff by myself isn’t high on my list but waiting around for someone to do it with me also isn’t high up there. So I do it. I need a bike rack though. It’s not easy to try and get that thing in and out of the back of the car each time.
I miss u!