Kids are sick (her worse than him).
I barely slept last night because of a belly ache, coughing & a fever (each one a cause or result of the other).
On top of that I dreamt about Cari
But on the way home from Grandma’s tonight I looked into my rear view mirror (which happens to be pointed right at the kids in the back seat) and I see this
He’s passed out sleeping but she’s awake. But there they are sitting, hand in hand (well finger in hand).
The moment is extremely precious. Yet I can’t stop from thinking how impossible it is that we’re in this situation and Cari isn’t here to experience this. My heart just aches.
I can’t exactly remember the dream last night. I wish I could. It had been a while since I last had a dream about her. I read someone else’s post earlier that day and it talked about a dream they had. Maybe that’s why I had mine. If that’s the case I’m going to try and read posts like that as much as I can. While they aren’t the easiest things to experience they are in my mind much better than nothing at all. I do know, even though I can’t remember exactly what this one was about, that it was a good dream and a dream I hope to have again.
Does that mean I need a sick kid keeping me up all night to have another one??? Well if that’s the case …
She’s sleeping now, but sleeping on her floor. The humidifier is going full force. I hope it keeps the cough down. I hope she sleeps most of the night. I skipped brushing her teeth tonight just so I could get her down without too much of a fight…oops. When she’s tired (as I imagine it is w/most kids) she lets me know and definitely tries my patience. Of course as I type this I think she might have woken (damn I should just keep my mouth shut)